Damn The Knee

Working on running my first marathon and stopped dead in my tracks. Knee is killing me.
Now I will have to shift my goals a little bit. No longer a marathon on October 23rd, rather one next Memorial Day Weekend. Going to have to run through the winter. Can not stop or get out of the groove.
Friends keep telling me that it is no big deal to miss my goal. I am taking on too much, my appendix will burst, slow the fuck down. Having difficulty doing this. Tired of feeling fat, tired of not meeting my goals, tired of be stuck in the same place.
Things are moving very quickly now. Wedding in less then a year, school, school, school. School is not quite kicking my ass but I definately need to get more into the swing of things. I think that I will be fine. First Exams are next Tues.
N has been fantastic although I don't get to see much of him lately. We are both crazy busy.
Pretty broke but what else is new? Not quite sure how I am going to live for the next four months. Government sort of fucked me with finacial aid.. Well not "sort of." They totally fucked me.